It really helps when you can see yourself making progress, even if it's only a little bit at a time.
Any movement forward is still movement, and right now I need to keep moving forward. Looking back and wondering or reminiscing gets me nowhere. I don't need to hit rock bottom to know that I need to keep looking up. I'm breaking an addiction, to many different things and I know that I've got to take this one day at a time, just like any other addict.
Funny how broken hearts are like broken ribs: no one can see them, but they hurt like hell. They make it hard to laugh and nothing can heal them but time. And no matter what it was that my heart loved, my mind can't reason away the pain.
But hey, I'm making excellent progress with this healing and in other areas that I've decided to take control of. No more lame excuses, no more pity parties. No more fucking whining. I think I've been afraid to let go of certain weights, and now I'm questioning the logic in that.
Time to let go and bury the past!
And man, do I have the greatest support team, or what?
Look at me. Look closely. I look happier and more calm than I've been in a long time. I'm so glad because I've got a few great plans.
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