Sigh

I don't wanna fall I don't wanna fly 

I don't wanna be dangled over the edge

of a dying romance

but I don't wanna stop, I don't wanna lie

I don't wanna believe it's over

I just wanna stay with you tonight.

I didn't mean to scream out quite so loudly 

when we screeched to a halt

I'm just never prepared for the end of the ride

If there's nothing left, can you tell me why that it is

you're holding on to me 

like it's the end of the world?

~The End of the World , Matt Alber

If ever there was a year that was spent learning about life, love and myself in general, 

this would be that year. And we're only in August. 

Going into detail and recounting every important thing that I've learned, big and small, would be more suited for an "end of the year" blog, and frankly, would probably be long and boring. So...

In a nutshell:

I've learned that it's not a bad thing to love. It's a bad thing to love for the wrong reasons. Love alone can't fix things. Love and respect should always go hand in hand. True love feels "right".

There are so many different types of love and it's important to remember not to confuse one for another. 

I've learned that I don't need to beat myself up for mistaking one kind of love for another. I've learned that I don't feel as bad as I did a couple of months ago, and I know that (God willing) I'll feel even better a couple of months from now. 

I've learned that no matter how much you love someone, you can't make them love themself. 

You can't make them truly love themself.

I've learned that it's okay to admit that you still love someone you shouldn't love, as long as you understand why, and why not. Human beings should love each other, after all.

I've learned that it's okay to cry, because grieving is an important part of letting go. 

I've learned that this might go on for a while, but really, I get the feeling that it's almost over.

As Indy laughs and sings while Dan reads him a book, I'm reminded of just how right true love can feel, and how it's a gift that keeps on giving its best, even when I'm at my worst.