What's playing on the iPod right now-Tsugunai by Yasunori MitsudaWe all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our own skin. ~André Berthiaume
It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are. ~e.e. cummings
Did you ever get the feeling that something or someone who was about to blow your cover was right around the corner? Thar's a storm a'brewin'!
I am a loving, caring person. I am also bitchy and moody and controlling.
But I am not one to revel in another human being's pain, and I certainly don't try to be the cause of that pain.
I'm no angel, but I'm not who you think I am, either.
It's funny, because I've been here before. Maybe that isn't so funny.
There was a time when no one knew about my polyamorous lifestyle. We came clean to our friends and lost only one who probably would've found some other reason to end the friendship. For years, people knew all about the three of us.
Now, years later, through the reforging of old friendships, we're once again wondering who needs to know what and when.
The bottom line is: I'm still who I was before.
Don't judge; that's not your job, remember?
I am a loving, caring person. I am also bitchy and moody and controlling.
But I am not one to revel in another human being's pain, and I certainly don't try to be the cause of that pain.
I'm no angel, but I'm not who you think I am, either.
It's funny, because I've been here before. Maybe that isn't so funny.
There was a time when no one knew about my polyamorous lifestyle. We came clean to our friends and lost only one who probably would've found some other reason to end the friendship. For years, people knew all about the three of us.
Now, years later, through the reforging of old friendships, we're once again wondering who needs to know what and when.
The bottom line is: I'm still who I was before.
Don't judge; that's not your job, remember?
judge not, lest ye be judged. good advice, isn't it? living and loving outside the mainstream is both tricky and fun - and the tricky part is why so much of the polyamory community keeps its collective head down, only sharing their stories and lives with others in the "life"... but that's not for me. i want to be a full expression of myself everywhere i go. i'm interested eroticism but not so interested in empty sex parties with apparently like-minded people...
ReplyDelete... because they aren't like-minded, actually. eroticism that grows out of our natural interactions is different, to me, than the desperate satisfaction of unchecked "want" that marks the "lifestyle". meeting a hot woman or couple at a "club" and then using this new acquaintance to momentarily satisfy my want is far less compelling than meeting, for instance, an attractive, interesting woman in my day to day life, then slowly dancing (metaphorically) around and with her until the truth is known. sometimes it becomes an imperative - with some women the erotic is such a strong context that i just know we're meant to explore and/or indulge in it. these are the women i tell - those with whom it's obvious we have a connection. as for everyone else... i don't hide, but i don't broadcast either.
you know - kind of like you. xx gary
"I want to be a full expression of myself everywhere I go."
ReplyDeleteBrilliant. So do I.